Life is Sunshine and rainbows.

Life is Sunshine and rainbows.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

My husband is gone.

Its ok... I miss him like crazy and long for his touch, but being upset about it wont change it. Crying, waiting for the breakthrough of comfort, just doesnt come. Just the same loneliness. He loves me, as much as I do him. I feel the love he has for me in our growing baby. Every wiggle and kick, is a reminder of his love. It wont be today tomorrow, or even next month, but when I do see my husband again, I will have the greatest gift of all for him. I will get to introduce him to his baby girl.

I love you Honey,
Stay safe.

Friday, April 16, 2010


It seems like Im never home cuz Im working as it s. Yet its only 8 hours a day. I dont see hubby anyways so I should just get a second job. If it wernt so hard to get this one, I'd get another. Once Hubs leaves I just might get another to pass the time, bring in the money and the hours.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

The sun is always shining somewhere.

Recently, I have been hit with tremendously big news. Not the good kind. This news is one of my worst nightmares. There is nothing I can do to stop it, and it is heart crushing.
What should be the happiest moment in my life is also going to be the saddest. I have been hysterical, wishing it wasn't true, but it is.
My husband is going to war in Afghanistan for 7 months.
If that wasnt bad enough, he'll be leaving when Im 6 months pregnant. He wont be able to be there for the birth of our first child.
Im trying to be strong and I find Im stronger than I thought.
I see other wives going through deployment and I envy their strength. I want that strength, not to prove my self to others, but it improve myself, my strength and to be able to support my husband.

Having gone through him being away before, though it takes a while, I realize I need to make everyday happy regardless of his absence. One bad thing, even if its a big one, doesn't mean everything is a let down.
The sun is always shinning somewhere, you just need to find it.

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

What a crappy blogger!

Ok so Im not too religious with blogging regularly... but I try.

So Ive been working at the call center for rogers cable. Its not going too bad though Im pretty slow and still pretty nervous when the phone rings. But its GREAT actually having a job and income! Visas are almost paid off and next is making double payments on the car to get it paid so we can buy a jeep!

Im now 21 weeks pregnant with a little baby girl. Though Ive only gained 3 pounds, I feel like Ive gained 50! She is kicking so much. Hubby loves actually being able to feel it. Its such a bonding moment feeling her move around. Though Im enjoying it, I cant wait till she is here and I can see what she looks like and hold her and kiss her. She does have a name but since there is always someone who has something negative to say we arent telling till she is born. That and we dont want to ware it out before she even gets here!

Tikka, the 11 month old ball of energy, is doing good. She is listening a lot better lately. She runs around the yard in the dopiest manor and I swear the neighbours dog is just looking at her thinking, "you are retarded! Why are you so excited to see that block of wood on the ground? And whaaat is so exciting about rolling, chasing and chewing on that ice block?!" Shes a lot of fun, even if she does like to play in her water dish flooding the kitchen most days. What a goof!

Life is great and I couldnt ask for more.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

My life lately.

I went to BC February 2-14th. It was a very late night the 2nd but saved me from flying on my birthday. In the morning, my family took me out for birthday breakfast. After that my sister took me to get a pedicure for my birthday. I just LOVE people massaging my feet, weird how much I love it really. Dad had to work that night but the rest of us went to my sisters for mexican dinner. My Deglan brother and Deglan sister-in-law joined. <3

A lot of the time was spent at my sisters making (well I "supervised") Grannys 80th birthday quilt. IT was nice that mom was off work so much so I got to see her lots. I really enjoyed all the family time. Got to see one of my favourite people, Great Auntie Arlene. Vivianna finally decided to put "Leslie" at the end of Auntie... it came out more like Auntie Sessie though. Too cute! She went on and on and ON about Uncle Dan. Whenever they would ask whos coming in _____ days, she would say "UNCLE DAAAN!" They tried to explain that Uncle Dan had to works so it was just auntie but, but she would always add "and Uncle Dan." at the end. We tried to tell her that Uncle Dan was in California doing army stuff... the easiest way to do that was to tell her hes doing army stuff with mini mouse. (her favourite) When Dan called I let her talk to him and the first thing she said was, " HI Uncle Dan! Mimi mouse? An army sfuff?" It was the cutest thing and Dan laughed when we explained why she said that. Tiara sure loves her papa. The weekend before I got there, he took her camping in the yard. He lets her make leather stuff with his leather making tools. So she makes key chains and stuff. Shes growing fast.... Boy do I love her.

Grannies birthday was great! There were about 100 people who showed up. Unfortunately the next day I had to leave. It was a sad trip home since I didnt know when Id be coming back, or if anyone was coming to visit. Im really upset I wont be able to go to my moms 50th birthday since I'll be too pregnant to fly. I said she should come here and visit before hand. Im not sure when she will come since her and dad are planning on coming out when the babys due in August. That would be awesome if the whole family could come so no one missed Tiara and Malcolms birthday. Its quite do-able being summer and all. Yard is big enough for tents!! Hmm.....

Baby Styles is doing great. Im showing now and think I can start to feel it wiggle around but not sure if that is what Im feeling. I cant wait till Daddy comes home and feels the bump. I was 8 weeks when he left so its a big change. 15 weeks has gone so fast, now only 14 weeks of work to guarantee maternity leave! YAY. I The name debate isnt getting far but we have 5 months left.

Monday, February 1, 2010

He says............ She says.

He Said To Me....She said to him...

He said to me ... . . I don't know why you wear a bra; you've got nothing to put in it
I said to him . . . You wear pants don't you?

He said to me . . ........ Shall we try swapping positions tonight?
I said . That's a good idea - you stand by the stove & sink while I sit on the sofa and do nothing but fart

He said to me.. ... What have you been doing with all the grocery money I gave you?
I said to him . ..... Turn sideways and look in the mirror!

He said to me. ..... Why don't women blink during foreplay?
I said to him .. . They don't have time

He said to me. . How many men does it take to change a roll of toilet paper?
I said to him .. . I don't know; it has never happened.

He said to me. . Why is it difficult to find men who are sensitive, caring and Good- looking?
I said to him . . . They already have boyfriends.

He said...What do you call a woman who knows where her husband is every night?
I said. . . A widow.

He said to me.... Why are married women heavier than single women?
I said to him . . . Single women come home, see what's in the fridge and go to bed. Married women come home, see what's in bed and go to the fridge.


Sunday, January 17, 2010

My week in 60 seconds... depending on how fast you read.

Well my most recent news (and most exciting... for me anyways) I got to talk to the hubby and will be able to more often! YAY. Also this week, I went to a prenatal class and got to meet a bunch of mommy-to-be's, most of which also have hubbys away right now too. Im not alone, someone understands! I have Eli moved out of the babys-room-to-be and finally cleaned all the bunny stuff out of there. Now its just a matter of washing the walls and finishing on the floor, oh and also cleaning out the closet. Then when the baby is closer to being here, we'll fill it with baby stuff! Hubby came up with 2 names which I both liked at first, now Im not too sure about one of them. I've decided I want to find out what we are having before we have it. All because of baby shopping with my sister and I wanted to buy the cute little girl stuff or the cute little boy stuff. I was in a baking mood yesterday, so I made banana bread (with apple chunks in it MMM) and oatmeal cookies. Thats about all in my lonely house for this week. We'll see whats in store for my doctor appointment tomorrow!

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Cant even talk to my husband for 2 months!!

So hubby was sent to California for "training" really hes just doing general duties (ie. cooking). I got a call from him yesterday, for the first time since he left (since Jan 2nd). He called to say that he wont have phone or internet access for the rest of the time hes there. (Till March 1st!). Why is it that family doesnt matter when they are on the same continent but overseas they get way more than one phone call every 2 months... Im still his pregnant wife who could use a moral booster every now and then when hes gone. Being alone is bad enough but pregnant on top of that.... He misses all the appointments and cant even call to see how things went. I just want him home!